Here are essential stages of the dark night of the soul that I have discovered within my own experience:
A significant, supernatural intervention occurs characterized by infusions of love and light, or an event of unexpected suffering.
A sudden descent into the dark night of the soul takes place. It is a very unexpected shift from regular consciousness required for participating in life into a state of temporary disconnection and isolation.
Revealing of Ego Fragmentation
As our normal state of consciousness dissipates, and we temporarily lose access to it, what comes to the forefront are our fragmented parts, along with their pain. They become more visible and detectable by our body and psyche.
After a time of connecting to the unhealed parts, a period of intense purging begins.
Contemplation comes in many moments, however whenever we release something, we become extremely and unusually aware of how a particular pain was appearing and interfering with our happiness. In that instance we get a glimpse into our new future. Also, we see with clarity our old unconscious patterns and feel the relief that comes with the understanding that they will no longer be a part of our new healed version.
After experiencing the hardship of feeling fragmented, connecting to the suffering parts, having purged them, and become aware of them fully, we enter the void. We aren’t fully connected to reality by our sensory faculties yet, this is where we prepare to receive a new identity in the form of downloads, also slowly we regain energy necessary for regular activities.
We are being reintegrated into reality and at the same time receiving new downloads which are going to serve us in the following stage; we acquire an undiscovered yet sense of resilience and power. Sometime during this stage we might not sleep a lot. Our brains are adopting to the newly acquired vibrations, for that reason we might we up at night.
A newly expanded awareness and courage is being established to consciously face and heal previously unnoticed hardships and traumas, or if it is the last dark night of the soul, we attain a state of enlightenment.
Naturally, we have a tendency to be bothered and be absorbed by negativity. This natural inclination has its purpose. It is a doorway to enlightenment. It requires a lot more energy and will power to overcome an inclination to ruminate in suffering or projecting/discharging it onto someone else. This is actually the gift of the dark night, a new sense of awareness and power to confront and conquer pain instead of letting it spread within or without. Being able to go within is an admirable skill, the ability to be able to notice uncomfortable illusions, hold them within, examine, and transmute them. This conscious effort breaks an inherent vicious cycle of continual misery. In reality, feeling pain is an opportunity to see what energies dominate and restrict us from achieving a higher form of happiness and a sense of fulfillment. For this reason, those who experience the dark night are privileged. However, it is hard to hold this understanding once a person is going through it.
From many angles one can argue about the meaning of free will and what role it plays as we journey through life. We are constantly faced with having to make decisions. And from as far as I can remember, I wandered about the inner deciding factor that is in charge of choosing. Where is that inclination to act one way or another coming from? And most importantly, why do we tend to wonder in the direction of suffering even when we desire otherwise? I spent a fair share of my time on getting acquainted with the dark night of the soul and as I dwelled in it and observed its mechanics and follow unreasonable to my mind instructions, it became obvious that during the periods of purging and contemplation, free will plays a crucial factor.
The dark night of the soul is a transformative process. It is one of the rites of passage in which you are transmuting the building blocks that make the very painful essence of who you are. It is a restorative process of every energy system inhibiting your body that dictates how much energy flow there is into your whole being, and also projecting itself outwardly. It is a monumental change from within.
As you are laying lifeless and dealing with insurmountable amounts of physical pain and suffering penetrating your whole being, and as you are cut off from the external world, it will seem to you that you have a very little impact on what is happening to you. This however couldn’t be further away from the truth. The bouts of tearing you apart play an important role, because in that very excruciating moment you are engaged in the act of choosing to transmute past hurts. Deep inside by choosing to experience your pain fully, you have chosen to purge it so it could leave your system. By facing the suppressed and unacknowledged parts of yourself, the source of severe misery and misfortune, you are using your free will. You are constantly choosing love over any lower frequency.
Especially during this process, you are demonstrating the strength to liberate yourself from any form of dissatisfaction, be it health, relationships, your self-esteem, or anything else for that matter. True free will is choosing to see what is hurtful and not letting it spread within or without, but having enough power to stop it in its tracks and transform it. According to me, this is the true meaning of free will.
The spiritual awakening is the most extraordinary process one can undergo, where profound changes occur transforming the quality of human existence. There are many various phases to a spiritual awakening and one of them, the most mystical and challenging to endure, is the dark night of the soul. There is some information on the topic that is briefly shared regarding the hardships associated with it. However, I have noticed that the struggle one has to go through is not conveyed enough to depict its unfathomable depth which I have experienced myself.
During the spiritual awakening, there are many dark nights that can take a hold of a person. Each has a specific goal and is responsible for healing a particular sphere of life. It is impossible to pinpoint how long the shadowy and gloomy periods can last, even though this is the very first question the mind poses, since the discomfort is grand and characterizes itself by being suddenly removed from a very familiar routine and the way of going about life, and instead being placed in a quite unusual state that does not follow everyday habits and customs.
There, we can follow a few rules, and those are the ones dispatched from the divine realms, which one way or another, find its way to provide guidance and support through rough patches occurring along the path. What is significant to mention is the intensity of this phenomenon. There are various kinds of potency this process can impose. The easiest and the shortest way to illustrate the intensity is by observing how much life force is being removed from the usual life we previously had. In some dark nights we might still hold a job, but once getting home, the hermit mode takes over, which translates itself into having a limited amount of energy because a big chunk of it is directed into all-consuming contemplation without us realizing it. In other instances, we must be entirely dedicated to this inner transformation by relinquishing almost everything we had managed to accomplish, and spent full days, months or even years to examine all the raw materials we were previously creating our life with.
Last night was the Full Moon, and as usually this occurrence has a tendency to bring out in us abilities, ways of being and feelings which we are completely unaware of.
The case is that we exist being oblivious about ourselves. And now, perhaps more intensely than ever, through pain we are awakening to our full potential. Every month the cycles of the moon give us an opportunity to peal another level of our unconsciousness. We are offered a chance to integrate another piece of our fragmented selves into the whole. And when one attunes themselves to this specific process, when the moon is fully lit, something extraordinary can be observed on the inside that manifests itself in the physical plane.
Depending on a specific phase of awakening you are in, you might notice different reactions. Sometimes when the moon is full people act out of the ordinary, and if they don’t act out the pain, there is a profound transformation transpiring on the inside.
If you are deeply rooted in spirituality, if you are extremely sensitive and you do pay attention to what is happening to your inner being, the internal processes can be quite uncomfortable and overwhelming in the beginning. However, when you dig into the very core of yourself and persevere enough, you are able to spot fascinating processes.
When you are eagerly invested into the feeling sphere, you feel every single detail happening inside of you. Usually, the influence of the Full Moon can be felt even a few days before. Therefore, the Full Moon can do many things, yet it usually has the tendency to either bring out your heavy-duty unprocessed emotions or like in other cases, completely and temporarily immobilize you so you could look within.
It is as if your entire world came to a full stop ,and a shorter version of the dark night of the soul so to speak has fallen upon you again. And this unexpected disconnection from the external forces ask you to focus on what is within once again.
You feel the inner tumult. The desperation shows up again and that feeling of not knowing of who you are and what you are supposed to do, how to go about life. All these uncomfortable sensations are supposed to spark the upcoming energetic release, letting go of another part of you that still suffers.
When this was happening again to me last night, I really thought to myself that another round of letting go is too much and completely unnecessary. I was reluctant to go there. I was wondering what else was there to release. However, when something has to leave your system, at that time those answers are not coming, all concentration is on that very pain that has to go or to be integrated. And then, the release comes and you knew that you did let go.
By now I already know what it feels like. And as that part was done, I began to detect another, unexplored yet in my body sensation. Instead of fluidity in motion that was forcing the release, I found myself to be sort of motionless. The complete opposite. If limitation in movement and staying in one place forever was an option, I would definitely take it. I felt like a stone. I sensed that inside of my being, something was being revealed to me, I was showed a dormant block of energy that wasn’t aware of it before. It laid there untouched. Its structure was very solid. I could compare it to a huge brick of gold and that sort of image presented itself to me when I looked at it with my third eye. It was a valuable energy resource which wasn’t utilized by me at all. But I didn’t care about it much, because I was worried about waking up in the early morning. I felt so heavy I wanted to stay in bed indefinitely. Every single piece of my body felt heavy. And when five in the morning struck, and I had to get up and get ready for a gym class, I thought I would not be able to lift the covers because even that seemed impossible. It seemed that my core was stiff due to this solid energy occupying my body.
Through my morning routine I couldn’t get the image of that solid block of energy out of my mind. As I barely dragged my body through a working-out routine which this time apparently was not as enjoyable as it usually can be. In that instant, desiring so much to connect to that sense of joy of exercising that I know I can feel, I had an epiphany. Instead of having that solid energy dictate my fate and weight down on me I realized that I needed to move that solid structure, shake it up, dust it off, utilize this new resource, push myself more to have this golden solid brick of energy move through my entire being and my entire body.
The moment I connected with this intention, my entire energy changed and I entered this magnificent state of aliveness which began to flow through me and out of me. I felt as if my wires were replaced and I was receiving and interacting with life as if I was this brand-new, golden, updated model of myself.
The change it caused in me, is priceless.
This was one of those instances where the movement was necessary in order to get that energy going. However, not always I was guided to do so. Sometimes the releasing process requires more time and staying in place. This is something important to keep in mind. Intuition always plays a key role.